The more I think, the angrier I get. How I hate HIM!!! To dump me for a blond Poppie, half his age with probably one brain cell!!! Absurd. Unthinkable!!! Unimaginable!!!  Embarrassing!!! BUT mark my words. No one will ever have the privilege to mess with me again. Not in a million years!!! Over my dead body!!! Hanlie-war-machine-not-to-be-messed-around-ever-again is starting her new life as from today. New look, new demeanor, new fokkin alles!!! Let me get out of this bed. Sleeping time is over. It’s time for change. Big change. Complete change. Transformation!!! World, here I come. THE NEW ME!!!Read More

The Galaxy – Armageddon / Judgement Day

Throughout my life I was surrounded by exceptionally wise people… My Dad. His favorite advice in times of heartbreak… “It’s an infatuation my child. It disappears quickly when reality hits.” My lecturer Diko van Zyl… My mentor in law Leon …who taught me (in that special language we perfected…) “Gee die Doos net genoeg tou en hy hang homself…. En – Beplan!!! Jy kan nie sonder ‘n strategie werk nie… dan sien jy jou gat – sonder ‘n spieël.!!!” 

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The Madness of our Actions VIRGIN TO BE… – THE ACTIVE ONE….

It’s time for stocktaking… 8 months since my divorce. I have money, nice clothes, nice car, nice friends, nice house, nice dog…. nice …everything… and still gatvol .. grumpy.. dissatisfied… therapy weekly… enough!!! This shit must now stop!!! Right now!!! TODAY.Friend Google – no zest for life after divorce?? Serotonin levels low….. Exercise more…

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The Galaxy – ‘n Fokkin Deurmekaarspul….

“Voice note…Kyle, Hanlie… het verstik … talk bit later….”
Ek hoor die “ping” en sien die foto..gelyk!!… Ek staar… my nekhare rys.. kopvel kriewel….
I get a feeling, an omen, a 6th sense… I instinctively know…. even before I’ve seen his name, read his message… there’s something about this man.
I’ve never met him… yet I’ve known him forever.
I’ve never spoken to him… yet I know what his voice sounds like…
I know nothing of him… yet I know everything…
and for a moment I am scared…Read More


My last diet attempt was in High School. My sister and I, both desperate to loose weight, borrowed a book from the library (which somehow never found it’s way back) with every possible diet under the sun.Read More

On the Re-Bound

*This is for my far off friend who is oblivious of his un-dealt issues – trapped in rage – on the rebound…Read More

The Galaxy – A learning curve

Ping, ping, ping… Wat de fok!! Robbery!! Panick button… sssjjjjtt… slowly out of bed……..Ag fok… why do I have to bring the entire donnerse kitchen to my bedroom…with all this noise I can just as well give myself over!!!

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Accidents are horrible. Moving is traumatic.

Google can’t prepare you for it. 

Books can’t teach you to cope with it.

You’re alone…Read More

DIVORCE – The untold truth

A journey from hell to health
Step by Step – Explicitly Told

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